kiramaru7 | Jealous

Jealous

By kira

For Sensei, who wanted a lil Sessh/Rin…

Author’s note: Special thanks to my beta, Jen, for polishing this for me…

Though they were both loathed to admit it to themselves, let alone to each other, Rin and Sesshomaru were both jealous of the attention the other paid to their new baby. As a result, Sesshomaru often found himself reading the same paragraph over and over in his book, while Rin hummed happily as she nursed little Aiko. The funny thing was, Rin was just as jealous of the way he softly sang her to sleep afterwards while she got stuck with taking care of the dirty diapers.

Things went on like that for a week since mother and baby came home and it was starting to affect their relationship. The lack of a good night’s sleep also did not help matters any and an uneasy tension settled between the formerly happy couple. They went silently about their day, barely speaking to each other, until Rin had had enough and burst into tears.

“Rin..? Brat? What’s wrong?” Sesshomaru asked when he came back to their bedroom and found his young wife sobbing into her pillow. “You okay?”

Shaking her head, Rin said softly, “No…”

“What’s wrong then?” Sesshomaru asked as he sat down next to her on the bed.

“You like Aiko-chan more than me!” she wailed.

Sesshomaru paused, completely taken aback by that as that was exactly how he felt. “Uh, Brat…?”

“I don’t believe it! You do like her more than me!” Rin buried her head in the pillow and cried her eyes out.

“No!” Sesshomaru said as he rubbed circles on her back. “It’s just…” he felt stupid admitting it, but did anyway, “that I, umm… you’re never going to believe this…” he started, but was met by silence except her soft sobbing and hiccupping. Taking a deep breath, he said, “I feel the same way.”

“What…?” Rin sat up and wiped the tears from her face.

Sesshomaru held his young wife close. “I feel the same way,” he repeated. “Every time I see you nursing her, or bathing her, or even holding her, I see you giving her that special look you used to give me,” he admitted. “And I feel left out, like you suddenly don’t love me any more because I wasn’t a part of you for nine months…”

She sighed. “You idiot! You’ve been a part of me for what? Twelve years?”

He chuckled. “Something like that, Brat…” he kissed her cheek.

“So as much as I love Aiko-chan, I don’t think I could love her more than you, because every time I see her, I see a part of you. I think I love her just as much, but it’s a different kind of love…” She laughed ruefully. “My mom was right. I would understand when I became a mom myself…”

“Yeah… All I can say is I hope she doesn’t give me the same grey hairs my brother and I gave my dad.”

“I don’t think so… and if she does, I’ll be here right beside you with my own set.”

He kissed her. “That’s why I love you so much, Brat…” Nuzzling her cheek, he brought his hand up to cup her breast. The past few weeks had been hell, as he found himself desiring her more than ever, while Rin’s desire for anything other than cleaning the house and setting up the nursery had dwindled down to nothing. Now that she had given birth, Sesshomaru found her sexier than ever and part of his jealousy towards their newborn daughter stemmed from the fact that he would have given his right nut to suckle on Rin’s full, heavy breasts. That led to various naughty thoughts, until he realized she was speaking to him.

“Same here, although, I hate to burst your bubble, Hun, but you’re not getting any for the next five weeks…”

“Damn…”

She giggled. “Sorry, but I wouldn’t mind some cuddling…”

“Okay.” He crawled into bed with her, spooning in behind her. They drifted off to sleep before they had realized it, getting a good couple of hours of deep restful sleep until the baby woke up again.

“WAAAAAAAH!!” Aiko wailed.

Groaning, they both got up to tend to her needs…