*sighs*

[kiramaru7]

kira needs a break from all the nonsense that's been going on around here. As of now, I'm not going to eb writing for any of the contest comms I belong. I've heard too many stories about funkiness with the voting that's taken the joy out of winning the few times that I did.

I feel a deep depression coming on, cuz my writing is getting darker & more angsty, and as a result I'm not enjoying it as much. And what's worse, I can't believe how many people can't be bothered to reciprocate with comments. Not that I'm a review whore, although it sounds like it, but I took the time to read their stuff & leave a comment, yet all I seem to get is a thank you, if I'm lucky and nothing else, as if it's okay to spend my time but not theirs. As a result I don't feel like commenting at all now or reading anything or even participating any more.

I feel meh... mostly because I'm tired of the wankage, tired of the politics & arse kissing, tired of people thinking they're better than everyone else & starting crap because of it & just plain tired... So I'm going to be selfish & go solo for a while. It's the only way I know of to deal with all the crap around here...

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[kiramaru7.livejournal.com]

I understand you've been sick, *huggles* Pixie-chan, & I feel we're friends enough that if I ahd a problem with you I could come to you privately 7 discuss it with you. I'm just irritated with all the rumours & inuendoI've been hearing, I don't knwo what's true & what's not & I'm tired of it. I'm also tired of the fact that after making a good effort to read stuff & post comments, the same 3, 4 people leave commentss on my work. So I'm not angry with you & I'm not angry Izzi, I'm just annoyed that I take tiem, tiem i coul;d use to be writing or doing soemthing else to read someone'sa work & not just one fic, but everything they've posted, but all they have tiome to do is say thanks, & mayeb if i'm lucky, I get a small convo out of them. But not once have they come over & looked at anything I've written. It si becasue I ahevn't friended them, they can't be bothered? Or what? With exception of one pairing that I cannot bring myself to read, I've read other pairings I wasn't that keen on & still commented. So unless I'm writing the apiring form hell, I don't get why they can't be bothered & it hurts, gives me a low opinion of them (which I hate because I try to see the good in everyone, until they prove they are a complete & utter shithead. >.>)and it just so freustrating & it's got me really feeling down. I cna barely type this...So I need a rest... or soemthing. I don't knwo.