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*gives you a gigantic hug* You know I am here for you :)

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*huggles you back* I know you are. I feel like you are the only one who is.

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I totally can understand where you are coming from! I hate seeing you depressed and hurt.

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furousha.livejournal.com

*luffs* all that crap comes with contest comms and fic writing in general, it sucks. <333

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I'm sorry to hear you're backing out of the comms for a while/ :( You really are one of the most active readers/reviewers out there and I enjoy hearing what you have to say about a fic. Hopefully a little time off will let you clear your head and come back to us...I'll miss you!

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salomesensei.livejournal.com

Very sad to read this kind of post -- from you or anyone. If anything you say here relates to me or either of the comms I run, please feel free to discuss it with me if you feel comfortable. I'd want to know. I had not heard of any voting "funkiness" anywhere, but maybe I'm out of the loop (haven't written much for comms lately, including mine).

Like you, I'm tired of the wank and the politics and it seems to swell and ebb around here. Anyhow, you'll be missed but take care of yourself as best you know how. I'll miss your Jak.

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plumespixie.livejournal.com

I wanted to let you know that this week I have been VERY sick, so not only did I not comment on others entries, but I did not even reply to my comments made on MY fic in Ihed.

I haven't had the time/energy to put into my friendships that my friends DESERVE, and for that I not only apologize, but I feel VERY guilty.

I am BLESSED to have friends that are very understanding of my medical or health issues...

Please, I hope you know how much I DO value and love you - and PLEASE do not take my lack of interaction personally. It has nothing to do with YOU, or a lack of appreciation for YOU or YOUR WRITING, its all about the fact that I can barely keep myself awake for 6 hours a day.

Please don't be mad at me, I will seriously CRY :`(

<3333333333
PP

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*huggles* thansk...

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*nods* and I hate it.

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*hugs back* you're one of the nicest people I met here on LJ!

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I try & I feel unappreciated not by anyone who repsonded here, but by people who aren't friends whose fics i take the tiem to read & all I get is thansk... Like everyone is supposed tio read what they write, but you rarely see them reciprocating. And with all the wankage at the contest comms I've had enough. I hear things that I'd rather not repeat & it's taking all the fun out of it.
I love the stuff I've read, don't get me wrong, but I ahve the feeling that unless your friends with certain peoepl, they feel they don't have to give any feedback. And it's frustrating.

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It has nothing to do with you and I'm not going to repeat anything I've ehard, becasue what I've ehard just amkes me feel sick, so why pass that on to someone else & have them feel just as miserable, plus I don't knwo how much truth there is behind what I've heard, so I've decided it ends here. I have just reached a point where I've had it & I don't want to hear it any more. I just want a wank free zone.

I just need some time away. I'll still eb writing & posting to my non-contest comms, becasue i'm hoping there won't be any wankage there...

I'm already missing your Ban... *sighs*

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I had this sinking feeling that you were under the weather Pixie-chan. :( *hugs softly*

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I understand you've been sick, *huggles* Pixie-chan, & I feel we're friends enough that if I ahd a problem with you I could come to you privately 7 discuss it with you. I'm just irritated with all the rumours & inuendoI've been hearing, I don't knwo what's true & what's not & I'm tired of it. I'm also tired of the fact that after making a good effort to read stuff & post comments, the same 3, 4 people leave commentss on my work. So I'm not angry with you & I'm not angry Izzi, I'm just annoyed that I take tiem, tiem i coul;d use to be writing or doing soemthing else to read someone'sa work & not just one fic, but everything they've posted, but all they have tiome to do is say thanks, & mayeb if i'm lucky, I get a small convo out of them. But not once have they come over & looked at anything I've written. It si becasue I ahevn't friended them, they can't be bothered? Or what? With exception of one pairing that I cannot bring myself to read, I've read other pairings I wasn't that keen on & still commented. So unless I'm writing the apiring form hell, I don't get why they can't be bothered & it hurts, gives me a low opinion of them (which I hate because I try to see the good in everyone, until they prove they are a complete & utter shithead. >.>)and it just so freustrating & it's got me really feeling down. I cna barely type this...So I need a rest... or soemthing. I don't knwo.

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*huggles* So are you! A True friend!

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*hugs* I hope you feel better Pixie. It sucks being sick. I know I missed seeing you around!

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I feel the same way about you. Thats we have to hang out one day in RL. You seem to have a lot in common!

I wish there was something I could do to cheer my Kira up...hum maybe a sweet Ren/Sui fic...I will try to write something for you tomorrow!

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*nods* yeah... hopefully oen of thse days we can.

*sighs* just leaving me be is the best, seriously. When i get l;iek thsi I just need to be by myself for awhile as it helps me get through it. I jsut feel worse when people fuss over me. ^^; But I do appreiciate it. *huggles*

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Okay :)

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thanks

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mythnlynx.livejournal.com

*hugs* I'm sorry if I've been among the guilty. It's been a stressful couple of weeks, with some health and injury issues (don't ask, I feel like a stupid klutz). I haven't even thanked anyone who commented on my last iyhed entry, nor have I commented on any fic recently. I feel like a real heel when I read how sad it's making you and tasuki to get minimal feedback.

I can certainly understand the urge to pull back and reevaluate, especially if there has been wankery occurring. I've been lucky to only be party to the vaguest of rumors, but if voting is in question at some comms, it makes you wonder if you should enter. We all want our writing to be judged on its merits.

Also, at this time of year, when it's Winter for most of us, I know I get the urge to hibernate and just not deal anymore, so it can be tough to reach out.

I just wanted you to know that I do consider you a friend, albeit a very new one, and that I do enjoy your writing. I hope that you will continue writing and posting for your own pleasure, and that you will continue to share with us, even if its not for a contest comm.

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plumespixie.livejournal.com

Awww I missed being on and seeing everyone, but you are quickly becoming one of my best friends... I always love to read your updates and your fics!

<3
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Aw thanks *hugs* I am glad to have gotten to know people like you, Izz, Kira, Sensei, Mythnlynx and enemytosleep recently :)

Edited Date: 2009-02-09 03:57 am (UTC)

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I totally understand what you're saying and have noticed some patterns myself. I try not to take things personally and have fun, but I can see it getting draining (especially since I seem to be out of the loop on the wankage...which I intend to stay uninformed). I hope you'll continue to write and share with us. *hugs*

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