*sighs*

[kiramaru7]

kira needs a break from all the nonsense that's been going on around here. As of now, I'm not going to eb writing for any of the contest comms I belong. I've heard too many stories about funkiness with the voting that's taken the joy out of winning the few times that I did.

I feel a deep depression coming on, cuz my writing is getting darker & more angsty, and as a result I'm not enjoying it as much. And what's worse, I can't believe how many people can't be bothered to reciprocate with comments. Not that I'm a review whore, although it sounds like it, but I took the time to read their stuff & leave a comment, yet all I seem to get is a thank you, if I'm lucky and nothing else, as if it's okay to spend my time but not theirs. As a result I don't feel like commenting at all now or reading anything or even participating any more.

I feel meh... mostly because I'm tired of the wankage, tired of the politics & arse kissing, tired of people thinking they're better than everyone else & starting crap because of it & just plain tired... So I'm going to be selfish & go solo for a while. It's the only way I know of to deal with all the crap around here...

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[kiramaru7.livejournal.com]

*huggles* Oh good it's not just me! (You're lucky you missed it. I've only beeen on the fringe edge of it, & it's enough to make me sick.) Feed back is good for an author's soul & when when a fellow author can't be bothered to return the favor, it hurts & that's what upset me & Tasuki so much. WWe comment on just about everything, yet certain peopel can't be bothered to take a few minutes out of their busy lives to do the same. Thanks... I am feeling a little better today now that I've said what was bothering me.

*nods* I know! My last two fics are pretty angsty, one I'm struggling to finish, one's been "published." I think once I get thsi one finished, things will start to look up, I hope. XD

Thanks! I love your stuff too! I esepcially love your icon, it always makes me laugh. *huggles*

[saraste-impi.livejournal.com]

Aww!*hugsies* Ah well, no worries then. Just shows that I only know kind and sweet people at LJ. Like you dear.^-^ Indeed. I did a paper (OMG!) I think I called something like 'The effect of instant feedback on the fanfic author' in which it was very clear (according to my material) that feedback is a driving force and 'paycheck', if you will, to authors.

Yay! That's good. I'm actually waiting for some angst, all I do now is smut or fluff.XD And mpreg, always mpreg. Though I think there might just be some angst.

XD I take no credit for the icon, just ganked it off some site. Dammit I wanna draw Jak!*hugsies*

[kiramaru7.livejournal.com]

*huggles you back* Liek everyone who repsonded here.What's sad is thsoes who should ahve seen this, probably never will... *sighs*

I wish I could read your paper! It's true, it's very discouraging when you write soemthing ahlfway decent & some fool of a Took who can't even grasp the basics of grammer gets a million & one reviews telling them how great the fic. Or when you post something here at a comm & after commenting on like everything, only a small handful of people are nice enough to comment on something you've written. I have a life too, & it's not like I live for their ficcage, if you knwo what I mean. Feedback is important like you said.


oh good. I usually write smutty fluff. XD I just can't write MPREG. I got close to it, but just couldn't do it. ;p

Yeah? I love it & this Mir/San one is sooo dreamy too! It's also nice.

So draw Jak! ;p I shoudl draw more Jak & Ban... What I shoudl do is sit down & draw the calendar boys from Jak's calendar. *giggles* (In one of my fics, he got as a present, a pinup calendar of all hsi male friends. ;p) Unfortunately I'm afraid I'd get a nosebl;eed doing that. ^^;

[saraste-impi.livejournal.com]

*hugsies* Maybe you can, some day. I've been planning to do it in English ever since I wrote it (last year, lazy or what?)

Indeed! Or when you get the ff.net reviews which are all like 'plz updeit soon, tis was awesum!'. *siiigh* Grammar, anyone? I do understand that not all posses a super control of their English but sometimes I need to stare at those oddly shaped comments for a while to get what they're saying. Oh my, sometimes I feel so awful guilty if I've gotten some reviews and haven't yet had time to read the other fics. *sigh* All in all, I'd almost take no feedback over badly written, whinging 'plz update' type stuff.

Mpreg... Do it, you know you wanna... It only makes your head hurt a bit after the first few paragraphs. (I'm the wrong person to take advice on this matter, however, having done my first IY fanfic as an mpreg. With smut. I was such a perv!)

Oh yes, one of my faves. I found it at this real nice icon comm here.^^

I will. Bad thing is I have the urge right now. As I need to wake up in about 8hrs, it's no good. *sigh* (Maybe I could sneak in an itty bitty 5min sketch, though...) You should. And I should read that fic, sounds yummy. I will get to that, swear. And drown you in comments and occasional drooling.:3 If you're in fright of a nosebleed while drawing... have a bucket handy, and some hankies.XD

*big hugsies*

[kiramaru7.livejournal.com]

*huggles* That would be so awesome!! I forget that English is not your first alguage, you write/Speak so well in it. I find most peopel who aren't native English speakers speak & write much better than native speakers. IT's sad really, but i think it's proably the American school system which is to blame.

*laughs* I don't get too many of those since I write mostly oneshots. But I do get the occasional one where I ahev no idea what the heck they're talking about. XD


I can't; there's a small logical part of kira's brain that screams that's not possible! So I don't even bother. But I did have fun flirting with the idea in crack!fic. ;p

Yeah? ;D

So do a quick sketch! I don't spend more than 10 minutes on the sketch. The coloring takes time, becasue i think of it as painting & I find it relaxing... but writing is my first love. *laughs* I should, but I as much as I can smut, drawing smut I find hard to do. XD ANd not that that's smut, oaky, there is a pic of Sessh & Inuyasha tied up together naked ;p it's not what I feel comfortable drawing... hence the nosebleeds. XD

taht's oaky. That's actually my first attemtp at Au. I found I ahd so much fun with it, I kept going. ;p

[saraste-impi.livejournal.com]

I think we try harder to write legible English so no-one can catch us of our poor, foreign English. I hear that American school system thing a lot, is it really that bad? (I had a minimum of 3 hours a week of English at school since I was 9 until 16, don't know why English stuck since I also had German the same amount and in Highschool too (as I did English) since I was 11 and it's so much worse. And I know that was just so random. I have a theory about how you tend to lax the, umm, quality of your language (grammar and other stuff) more when the language is familiar, like your first language. My Finnish? It's appalling. (So much so that my sis said the other day that if I can give in a paper at the Uni in English, I should jump at the chance!LOL)

Well, when two bishi's love each other very very much and make sweet and soft cuddly love and when the moon is right and there is demon blood involved (and logic has been bound, gagged, and deposited into a corner) the magic of mpreg occurs. (There is no logic, it's like the age old question of why many lesbians enjoy reading and writing slash/yaoi. The unexplainable mysteries of fandom, really. XD )

Sketch-time! Oh my, I can so see how that would give one a nose bleed. *drools* Oh, such a yummy delicious naughty image. (I can't draw smut either. I've tried and I think I might be improving if just by a bit...)

Mmm, stories that do that to you are so fun, aren't they?^^

[kiramaru7.livejournal.com]

That could be it. *nods* Yeha... imagine passing a class simply for showing up & ahving any bad grades you earned by nOT doing the work, excused becasue it would hurt your feelings to fail. EXCUSE ME? What about Real Life? When I fail there, no one's going to be concerned about my feelings. *sighs* So yeha, it can be bad. Plus in the school I went to, I could go home, lie to my parents about a teacher, & the teacher would get in trouble, not me for lying.

*laughs* I still don't think I could do it. I knwo my limits & that's oen of them. ;p I'd much ratehr leave ti in the hands of the masters. ;D

YAY!! I cna't wait to see him! In fact I think I'll put him in my Bo7 folder. I have tons of fanart in there from all over the net plus stuff freinds did. ;D Yeha... XD

Yup!!

Maybe English stuck with you because more people spoke it around you. *laughs* It can't be that BAD! XD

[saraste-impi.livejournal.com]

OMG (Albeit I did pass some classes that way in Highschool... Didn't like to do my physics, math or Swedish homework. But we still did need to not fail too many classes to be able to graduate. Like getting through 4 out of the 6 compulsory short math courses, which I did. Basically in highschool you had to pass 2/3 of your course in every subject (depending on the amount of course, of course) to be able to graduate.)

OMG! I can't, either. Would have done him today but just...ended up knitting and reading fanfic and napping when I came home, somewhat sick.

Oh, no, no speaking around me. I blame TV and JK.Rowling. I've never known an English speaking person in RL. But I think it stuck due to fanfic and my completely English online existence. Oh yes, my Finnish (at least when I need to be all precise and write something not prose) is awful. It really is. My grammar is... XD Anyway...

*hugsies*

[kiramaru7.livejournal.com]

*nods* Who wants to do HW? But I'm sure you did enough to pass the class. Like I did. ;p There were certain requirements to pass & with teachers who don't want to teach kids who don't want to learn, it;'s amazing that I actually passed anything. ^^;

*nods* Cool! You knit too? And I also took a nap. I woke very early with a leg cramp. ^^; I ahd a hard time getting out of bed, but after walking around fro 10 minutes, it eased up.

Aaah... but that's amazing at how well y9ou picked it up!! XD Well... with a proofreader, you shoudl do fine on your term papers & stuff.

*huggles*

[saraste-impi.livejournal.com]

XD I'm sure you were more studious than me! I was awful at school.

Yes, I knit. But don't crochet. (I can, sorta, but it's so much slower than knitting!) Right now I'm doing this cute little sweater for my sis' baby thats due in May.^-^ All full of future-auntie exitedness!

*huggles*

[kiramaru7.livejournal.com]

I wouldn't be too sure of that.. ;p

Cool! I like to crochet whn I need to amke something liek a baby blanket as it goes faster for me, & it really doesn't matter how big it gets.

Sweet!! You'll have to take a pic to show us when you're doen! ;D My brother's bday is in May too! Along with an Uncle, & a coupel of cousins. ;D

[saraste-impi.livejournal.com]

I've been thinking about crocheting a baby blanket too, if I can make myself do it!XD

I will. When the baby comes, I'll undoubtedly flood my LJ with pics anyway. And go all crazy.

[kiramaru7.livejournal.com]

You should!!

YAY!!